Tyler West 110

She says I'm ok
I'm alright
though you have gone
from my life
you said that it would
now everything should
be alright

You know I almost wish I was driving home for fall break this year. Last year, like this year, I had to bring my mom's car down so that I could get all of my stuff to school. This year, unlike last year, I will be keeping her car down here the entire semester. Anyway, back to the story. Last fall break I left after my last class on friday and drove through the night to arrive at home early in the morning on saturday. It was cool driving back through familiar roads. As I came past exit 87 and then 90, all I could see was a hazy light. The area was covered in fog, but yeah, it was cool or something. So I pulled into the yard about 5 am and stumbled into the house after a thirteen hour drive. My parents were already up. Unbeknownst to me they were planning on going out to breakfast. So, being a little bit hungry I gladly accepted their offer to come with. So, me, my brother, and my parents all piled into the car that had been in texas that last time the sun was up and headed to cracker barrel. That was cool.

I get to be in a wedding next July. Not mine. My old roommate is getting hitched. So I'm going out to Wichita to be a groomsman. He's also coming down in december to watch me gradumacate so you guys can meet the guy i spent my first thee years in texas with.

And because I like flogging molly and it could be played at a wedding (hey, andrew played coldplay and ben folds at his)

"Never Met A Girl Like You Before"

I would wrap the world in clover
But you make me see my way
And I would die for you tomorrow
Would you come to me today?
Sing a song of sadness about the girl with the happy face
And dance upon the water with a ripple or a trace

Love is here any cloud in the sky
Would you be my flushing bride?
I don't think so
But I never met a girl like,
I never met a girl like,
I never met a girl like you before

I'd climb the highest mountain
To the sunrise from your face
Light a million candles
To flicker to your name
Scream aloud with vengeance
With the wind beneath my breath
Do you understand the madness?
Do you recognize the grace?

Love is here any cloud in the sky
Would you be my flushing bride?
I don't think so
But I never met a girl like
I never met a girl like
I never met a girl like
I never met a girl like you before,

Oh no I never met a girl like you before
Oh no I never met a girl like you before

I'd surely die and liro
Waiting for your every call
Will I ever see your sunshine?
When I'm done playing it all

A boy with no companion
Lost for baby blue
Words more then mean it
When they count for one like you

Love is here any cloud in the sky
Would you be my flushing bride?
I don't think so
But I never met a girl like
I never met a girl like
I never met a girl like
I never met a girl like you before,

Oh I never met a girl like
Never met a girl like
Never met a girl like you before

Oh no I never met a girl like you before
Oh no I never met a girl like you before
Oh no I never met a girl like you before

man, I'm stupid.

have you ever felt like you should do something, but it was more convenient to keep walking. yeah. that's what I did today. I'd say it was the easy way out and all. but to be honest, what I avoided doing wasn't hard or even scary. i'm stupid.

So I'm supposed to be studying for a pentateuch test. Grrr. This is going to be ugly. I might as well just drop the class. Just kidding. But still, I need to get on the ball more or things aren't going to be so pretty around midterms.

Have a good rest of the week.

Two years ago I hopped in 64LU to fly up to SCX to go camping with my church. My family was up there and so I got to fly like nine hours and visit with friends and stuff. Now my folks are camping again, somewhere else, but I can't get ahold of them. I wanted to call them and check in...see how things at the good old 835 are going, but no one answered. Talked to the sister today though. Guess she's taking care of some foster kids. I had no idea. Thats got to be a ton of responsibility. I asked if she was coming to my graduation, and she said she most definitely was. I tried to convince her to come down and visit during the semester too (only 200 on AA), and she said she might. If so, all you LU'ers get to meet another member of the bush family. Speaking of graduation, a fellow soon-to-be graduate told me that she heard we have like sixty days left till graduation. Turns out that its sixty week days, but still, thats hardly anything. In less than three months, I will be a college graduate. Yay.

"So, me, my brother, and my sister went out drinking last night. We all got really trashed. My sister got in the truck with her ex- and I chased after them. I finally caught up and jumped in to the pickup bed. I told them that I wouldn't leave until he drove her back to her place. Then a cop stopped me and asked if I had been drinking. When I said yes. He asked how much. I said I just broke up with my wife of two years and that's why I was drinking. He let me go."

mui companios mucho loco

I got called out on something tonight.

A friend said I complain about not having a girlfriend, almost to the point of being bitter. While I don't think I'm bitter about not having a girlfriend, I am most definitely positive that I am bitter about being rejected by a couple girls in particular. I'm even bitter at my parents for pushing me further with one girl. Well, shortly after I got called out on this, I went to taco bell (which was closed, so I went to the other one). Pretty sure I had a lot of time to think about it. The more I thought about, the more I realized how silly I was being. Both of these incidents are several years past, and I just need to get over it and quit holding a grudge. The deal is that neither of those girls were in God's perfect plan for me. Key word being perfect. He has someone out there that is much better. I let myself get so emotionally involved (some might call it obsessed) that my failure in that particular situation was all I could see. I like to plan things out and when they don't go my way, well, I tend to freak out and start thinking I'm a failure. What I don't realize is that I was going down a completely different track tham what God had in mind. While I was lusting after the IROC Camaro with T-tops (a real sweet car) I couldn't understand that if I would just wait for His timing He would provide me with a McLaren (figuratively speaking of course, I don't want to date a car). Instead of griping and being a miserable bitter person I need to be thanking Him from letting me make a mistake.

So yes, I still envy those happy couples that I see. However, I know that if I try to follow God's lead, things will work out better, even if they don't include a girl at all (man, thats a scary thought). So, I'm doing my best to stay in wait, hope, wish mode and keep from obsessing.

Oh, and I'm hoping my parents don't obsess about a girl again, either. That was annoying.

Ducks will mess you up!

This week has already been crazy, and its only halfway through.

I was sick for most of the weekend so I didn't get any homework or anything else productive done.

Monday I found out that we had a paper proposal due that morning. I still have yet to do anything on it. I slept through History class (I know, bad dj, but I was tired) and that night me and Todd went to see Floggig Molly. That alone has made this week so freakin' awesome.

Tuesday was the day I spent recovering from Monday. I went to all of my classes but had trouble staying awake or being productive in labs. I did get my graded Bible test back. Got an 86. So I got that going for me. That night, Kerri some how wrangled me into going to a praise and worship deal at someplace she had never been. Needless to say we ended up driving down some dark streets on the wrong side of town. But yeah, it was a decent place when we finally got there. Later, me and Todd went to the hive and I got the most awesome drink "the deena bohon". Unfortunately, drinking the deena keeps you up almost as long as talking to the deena.

After not much sleep, Wednesday morning came and I stumbled through my first two classes. Pretty sure I got to hang with some cool people after chapel. Pretty sure deena wasn't one of them. Pretty sure she attacked me in chapel. Then I slept the afternoon away and almost missed history again. But I went and endured it for a whole eighty minutes. After dinner, ditty made me help him work on the new Tyler shirt. Its gonna be crazycool.

We have room inspections tonight, and todd has gotten most of his part done already. My part, of course, has been clean since the last room inspection. Now we just have to vacuum and dust or some other stupid stuff like that.

Ya drank with demons straight form Hell
They almost nearly won as well
Ya wiped the floor with victory
Then puked until you fell asleep

Salty Dog - flogging molly

So me and todd went to the show tonight. It was freakin' awesome. I'm now half deaf, but my hearing is slowly coming back. The only thing that put a damper on things is that I was still recovering from being sick so didn't have a whole lot of lung for the night. One of the opening acts, "street dogs", was awesome. There a "band from boston that work their asses off"...nuff said. Think I might get a CD.

Got pulled over tonight on the way home. Got a warning for a burnt-out license plate light, so guess I'll be visiting the local ABC this week.

oh yeah, i'm feeling better...still not 100%, but around 75% or so.

I've been sitting here for the last 15 minutes wondering what I should write about. See, I've done just about every kinda blogpost and its all beginning to seem trite. I can talk in cryptic tones of things wished for, or reminisce of times gone by. The thing is, I've done it all before, and it only skirts the issue.

I'm not really sure what the issue is. I think it might be communication. Many of my failed attempts at romance have involved not a whole lot of talkin'

1. When I was 9, I watched this girl from afar, and dreamt about whatever it is 9 year old boys and girls are supposed to be when they're a couple, but never said a word to her

2. When I was 13, I put a note that said "I LOVE YOU" in a half-used bag of purina dog chow. I was decent friends with her before that, she pretty much quit talking to me after.

3. When I was 14, a friend offered to write a lame, but very funny, letter to another girl explaining why I didn't talk to her, but still was extremely infatuated.

4. When I was 17, I started talking to a girl I knew on AIM, but always froze up when I saw her in person.

I could list more, but the deal is that I am freaking scared of talking to girls in person, and when I do, I don't say anything meaningful. All that comes out of my mouth is just a load of blabbering look-at-me, I'm cool bullshit. Up to this point no girl has admitted liking me, even though I thought I picked up on some hints that said otherwise. However, even if a girl straight up told me she liked me, I'm afraid I wouldn't know how to react. Not only can I not be smooth and put 'the moves' on a girl, if she started showing interest, I would either be passive, or worse, run.

It's like I'm back in 5th grade. Avoiding eye contact with the cute 4th grader across the cafeteria. Talking to all the other girls but her.

The deal is I often try not to be too agressive and so end up being passive or anti-relational. Or in some situations after playing the passive game for too long turn up the heat into an ultra-agressive, grab at any chance, last desparation thing. Either way it sucks. GRRRARRGGH.

Send all suggestions, comments, and flames to that little comment box below

Grrr. I didn't know this but Nyquil comes in two different effective flavors: Cough and regular.

Well, cough only has cough suppressant and antihistamine, which really do nothing for being congested.

I need the real (regular) nyquil that has the good stuff:

Pain reliever/fever reducer
Cough suppressant
antihistamine
nasal decongestant

Stupid stuff, and now I can't take dayquil, cuz i've already taken gayquil and have to take another six hours for the next dose of drugs.

It is 1:55AM Thursday night (or Friday morning) and I feel like crap. Somehow I got whatever has been going around and it finally hit me this morning. Not good. I've been popping Vitamin C like smarties with the occasional dose of dayquil, and I still don't feel much better. I'm all stuffed up, I have a sore throat, and my sinus passages are about to pop.

I took a bible test today. I think I did alright on it, but I guess we'll find out next week. I also did some sewing for composites class. Man, did I suck it up. It took me forever and many demonstrations by our lab assistant to figure out what I was doing. Nick from the awesomest heslper sewing co. also helped.

It looks like nick, katy, and lindsey are going to the county fair tomorrow night. I might be going, but I guess that depends on how I'm feeling tomorrow.

I hate being sick.

Ok, so I've got a sore in my mouth, and it's been hurting for the last couple days. T'other night, todd gave me a tube of maximum strength equate brand orasol gel. It wasn't open yet, and I was going to try to make it through the pain, but as 5 minutes ago, I wussed out. I applied the anesthetic to my inner lip, and waited for it to work. I must have accidentally got some on my outer lip as I noticed it was quickly becoming numb. So, I decided it would be fun to rub it on the rest of my lip. It also makes a decent lip balm (either that or I can't feel my cracked lips now). Anyway, my lips feel all fuzzy now, like I just got back from the dentist's office.

A guest post from Todd. If you'd like to make a guest post...let me know.

Well as you all know I am Dave's roommate. It has been going well so far. The only thing I am not used to yet is him trying to crawl into my bed at 3 am. He says its because he had a bad dream but I send him down to the Blue couch. Naw all seriousness now. We have a good time in a heterosexual way. Dave tells me he will do hw this semester but all I see is blogger on his computer screen. Maybe he should start posting regularly at least if he isn't gonna do hw. Well as some of you may know dave and I went to see The Strokes in Dallas last year, totally awesome. Well this year we will be going to see Flogging Molly. This will be my second time seeing them, but I didn't know them much before I saw them the first time. I am excited to go and maybe I will have a tale to tell afterward like dave and I partying with the band drinking root beers and singing drunken lullabies.

So yeah, Todd is being stupid. currenty he is taking a nap on the couch. Although the nap looks more like he is watching the poker world-series. He wanted me to write a post about how sexy he is. I'm not really sure that I'm attracted to him, which is a good thing. However, I did hear that a senior girl tried to hook up with him the other day. Judging from the fact that women from local high schools, lu, and outback all want a piece of my roomie, I would say that he is pretty sexy. So yeah, that is my tribute to the sexy todd who resides in my room.

In other news, I have obtained the famous yellow chair. It used to belong to a curly headed boy that lived across the hall, but he left us all for kansas. Upon leaving, he gave the chair to a certain hyper girl. Unfortunately, she didn't have space for it in her room, so I was fortunate enough to be asked to watch over it for this semester. It's a very comfy chair, probably the most comfy i've ever sat in.

I have almost survived another week. Last night was room inspections, so me and todd got it looking very sharp. I'm almost completely organized, now I just need to start doing homework. Only 13 more weeks till finals!!

I did meet a friend of katy's this week. Well, I say that, but I've actually met her before, but it wasn't quite a meeting or whatever. You know how you meet someone and then never talk to them again? Yeah, it was kinda like that. It's just you get introduced to them to where you know their name and that's that. Most cases I forget the name after awhile, generally about 5 minutes. Anyway, that wasn't the case this time, for some reason I actually remembered her name. But yeah, all I knew was her name, and I wasn't about to act like I knew her as past experiences (including one today) indicate that while I may remember a name, often others don't remember meeting at all. Which is all fine for me, cause today it kept me from getting into a food fight. But I digress. So I was out passing bandanas out to girls for our yearly freshman deal when I saw her out walking as well. I considered saying hi, but then I figured she would be umm...who are you? So, wanting to avoid another ELH 1 scenario (Phil remembers that little encounter), I decided to keep on walking. Anyway, the next chapel, she was talking to katy by the door, so katy introduced us again. She seems pretty cool and from what I could hear in chapel, she's pretty funny too. So yeah, didn't really get a whole lot of time to talk, but maybe sometime later.

Oh, and guess what else? Todd and me are leaving longview on the same plane to dallas. Yay. If living with him 24/7 wasn't enough, I get to spend 30 minutes in a Saab with him. Of course the sucky part is that I am flying home to get my wisdom teeth pulled. So thats gonna suck. But yeah, I'll have plenty of drugs to get me all doped up.

Today is the beginning of extended orientation at 1A:

We had a little cookout down at the pimp 13B pad. All the freshman plus a few girls were there. Deena was talking crap trying to start a fight, but I had self control. The silly girl was trying to poor water on me and nick, but yeah, I convinced her to back off. I think the threat of serious repercussions scared her away. Also, Deena, the supercook, made some delicious desserts for the party. I think kerri might have had a hand in it too, so thanks to kerri if so. If not, pbbbt.

Me and Todd almost went to church this morning, but we stayed up late last night watching primal fear (norton is crazygood in this movie) and snl reruns. Maybe next week we'll manage to get to out of bed early enough to go to church.

An update on the girl situation: I believe the general consensus going around is that I don't talk to girls and therefore must be gay. This is absolutely not true. My roommate is very straight...i hope. I am straight as well, girls just scare me. So i guess that means I need to talk to girls more often. Maybe I'll do that.